contentment list

Things I enjoyed this Christmas season!!!

• lechon cebu
• mama's cookies
• wine,wine and never ending wine
• NOEL CABANGON
• the beach ( and the frills and thrills that came with it "wink")
• full moon
• sunsets
• happy tummy
• family
• old friend and new friends
• speaking out
• good news and happy thoughts
• hot tea and great conversations
• dreaming about my next camera
• new love
• new wishes
• new dreams
  

cheers to endings and new beginnings....

nakaw shot from tin

kunwari lang

stargazing

crazy sisters

it was nice

Together with sisters and some good friends we spent some quality and carbo load time together in Batangas. We spent 2 good days just literally sleeping and eating! listening to music and being crazy.

In this trip, I found myself again. A chance to think and reflect about the year that is to end.A time to thank "HIM" for all the blessings that I have, for my new friends, for keeping my family safe and for learning how to trust again.

Indeed a good way to spend the Christmas season and a great booster to start another year: A new chapter in my life. A year that will be filled with more blessings, new love, bigger dreams and never ending drive to be able to achieve everything.

A prosperous new year to all!!

tis' the season

It feels nice to be back in my beloved Spicy Manila for the holiday season. Nothing beats being with the family during special holidays where all of us take the time to be with each other. This year makes it more spectacular given the new events and circumstances that has been happening in my life.

This year marks my freedom and being independent. For being more articulate about my feelings and being true to myself. For looking at things outside the box and accepting criticisms from other people. For learning to trust again. For having my own voice yet listening to other people. I really do learn a lot from them.

Taking the challenges of everyday life and living each day to the fullest capacity makes it worth every step. I know that most of the time i will come short to people's expectations and demands,but what the heck,the most important is I tried my best and did everything I can. At the end of the day, it is what matters to "me" that is important. I am what I think and what I feel.

Today I head to Batangas with my sisters and friends for a Christmas bonding Holiday. Little events in life that I look forward too and treasure the most.

Happy Holidays!

reklamo lang

It was one hell of a week! I had to beat so much deadlines and top it with

dinner meetings = sleeping late = eye bugs and slow mo brain = bitchiness

This week will be better for sure :)

vice

My addiction to coffee is getting worst. I take it without sugar anymore. During busier days I have it just black and thick. Pero, usually I take it with a little milk.

I have a new addiction,GUM! I can just chew away for the whole day. It keeps me full ( yup!! no more unhealthy snacks), it keeps me under pressure and sometimes it does help a lot when I am bored. I am just getting used to MAnila time again. Everyone is late,I always wait at least 30 mins minimum for all clients. I hate it. But my new friend (mr. gum) helps me maintain my composure,patience and sanity.

Not that I have bad breath but yup yup it keeps the breath fresher ans maybe stronger teeth and jaw. So don't be surprise if I have a well packed JAW when you see me. Balances it well with my big cheeks.

So cheers to new vices!!

hmmmm

• Just came back from Singapore
• Emotional overload from my 2 dear friends
• are the planets moving in the wrong direction again?
  

I'm having client problems again. I hate dealing with nosy,picky,no sense of style clients........but they do pay good money! JAnah!! welcome back to "the web"

The pest,DALAGA na...

This is my pest. Her name is Chynna Marie Joyce Ledesma.

Well she's taller than me now,she's dalaga na,but still a pest.
She already loves make up,cute boys who look like artistas and listening to bopping music.
She likes following me around when she does not have classes, irritatingly nice.
She likes to dance and to sing.
She makes my dad insane
but in general she is a stunning pest.

A pest i cannot get rid off. But it's nice

just thoughts

A lot has been happening lately. It's just barely 3 months since I arrived here in Manila and since so much activities has been going on, I feel that I have not really left at all. So many overwhelming things are happening from my personal life to my work,from how I perceive things to how I talk with people. I kinda like it though.

Everyday since the year my best friend died,i wake up saying thanks for another day and another life. I try to smile at little things that irritates me,see the bright side of something bad or sad. The monotony of life is what challenges me. To spice things up for my own buds and taking notice of little things around me. Even the cracks on the wall could be interesting and a source of inspiration.
My new set of eyes brings everything alive. Just the last time i saw my grandma, i see beautiful lines in her face. No amount of botax could make it more wonderful. Little lines deep and shallow,tells a story of a smile and a frown. Lines that looks so rough yet very soft to the touch.

lovely lovely

wedding!!!!

Dexter's wedding,he is the twin brother of Hubert,who was my client before I flew away to Barcelona. Apparently,I did not really get a chance to know him because he is a practicing doctor in the states.

Since Manila is a big AM station,we kind off got to know each other just through the stories and tsismis of family and friends. I remembered feeling very happy that night...seeing my old clients who became like family already and how could I forget uncle Alfonso, (the twins' father) who is one of my favorite person in the whole wide world. And of course,lovely Bea who I missed a lot!!!

Happy tummy as well...
It was kaddoper fun!!!
thanks waps!!!!!

got this from oli's flicker....

hmmmmm....

yup

it's growing on me

Mariona!!!!

las fotos de Molinet estan aqui

he venido a.........

Went to eat (and run:) in Tagaytay yesterday. Too bad it was raining and foggy. Otherwise the cool weather is super perfect for a weekend getaway...it was a pity too that we could not stay longer,due to the sexy typhoon named HANNA...(yup yup.:)

The food at Leslie's was not as good as i expected pero masarap pa rin, hot bulalo soup shared with new friends over new kwentos. Happy tummy as well!!!

Janah's event of the week!!!

The spanish film festival starts this week!!! I am so excited!!!! que chulo!!!! vamos amigos!!!

It is time......

to put on my DANCE SHOES!!!!!

Turtle love

Friends come in many forms and packages. They have different colors & sizes.

Some are pretty
some are sturdy
some are colorful and playful
some are dull and dark
some are expensive
some are cheap
some are annoying
some gives you peace
some you like to throw away
some you'd like to keep forever
some you treasure
some you just don't care
some are weird
some you always like to hold

I would not be what I am if not for my friends
They did toughen me up,some just makes me melt
A lot of them makes me smile
If some makes me insane
most of them keeps me sane

just useless rants and raves,a reminder that little things like friendship makes life worth living.

just the sticky weather....

It's been very sticky since last week. Mosquitoes loves sticky therefore they love me. It will be super hot,then it rains,after it rains, it's sticky again then it just goes in an eternal cycle.

Hot sticky days just zooms by like the speed of light. Week after week after week after week......then it will be Christmas.....then summer, then my birthday then Christmas ..another eternal cycle......everything just goes in a circle.

It starts as one small circle that grows round and round and round,like a web. We are the spider of our own web. We have to learn when to pause and when to go on. We should learn how to grow with the web we are weaving so as not to be swallowed by it.

It's been odd trying to get back to work,looking for projects and trying to organize everything together.

I feel like i have to move fast...but then again, as I pause, It becomes very clear that I don't want to be stuck in the web that took me a year to get out of.

AVE Q!!!!

Watched Ave Q last night! It was hilarious! Galeng ni Rachel Alejandro,I even find her interpretation of the songs better than the original broadway cast....whoooooot!!!!

After the play,we were so hungry! Joyce came from training pa. so I would bet that she's even more famished than we are. Anyway, we ended up in TAPA KING....or make that TAPA KING...liit ng servings mhen, pero it was still good!! happy tummy!!!

DANG!

The world

is full of colors today.......

good chi

que pasa?

• A lot of RE organization,bring the good chi back to a fresh clean start.
• had my first job site meeting,love the smell!
• nosy pesky sisters are back to bugging......
• definitely tasted all the food that i have been craving.
• I should start my ball rolling......
• poco a poco

coways and friday's on a friday

ooohlalala!

had so much fun with my friends.
manila my manila

Estoy en la vida real. Me gusta mucho....

Manila my Manila

Everything is strange.

I feel like i am looking at Manila from the outside.
I like the chaos though. Very appealing,very distinct,
my home,my country.

It's just sad to think that there are a lot of poor people.
But amazingly, everybody is smiling.
I never saw this in Europe,people there are very drab,dark and serious.

I am very happy to be back.

PICTURES HERE

my milan flat

pasta pasta pasta nalang lagi...

my small kitchen

big room..yay!

balcony with closed shutters

big desk!!

view from my blacony

I am living alone,the first taste of solo life without flatmates/housemates.
I found out I am so OC with the gas,lights and locking doors.....i check 100x
which is a good sign.I think

paparazzi janah

It was a very peaceful Saturday morning.
My first weekend in Milan.
When i looked out of the window,i saw this lady watering her plants,
she had this complete outfit...
boots,gloves,hat,shades...she looks so cute I just had to take a paparazzi shot.

crosspossting from multiply

"we don't just design we create atmosphere,feelings and lives" Italian interior/furnitutre designer........i'm sooo inspired!

i know,but.....

VOY

my day!

breakfast with tilde (chocolatey breakfast)
movie with mariona (el abuello)
nice dinner with my filipino family complete with a cake,singing and blowing!

FELICIDADES MI PAPA!!! TE QUIERO!!!

i have only one birthday wish......

felicitats

I am un-celbrating my birthday.Who wants to join me?

There will be

fireworks
Pancit
booze

i had too much coffeee...my fingers feels very numb!

hasta pronto

Today is the opening exhibition night.
¡QUE EMOCIONADA!
15 more days in my Barcelona.
For sure this will just soar by......

pictures to follow!!!

Tonight,

My room is empty
This my last night......
It's sad..........
but then again,it's also moving on....
last month in beloved Barcelona......
and then my journey continues.

pahabol.......

as much as I want to belive it...people are very hard to trust.

No lo se!

I am having one of those days....

I feel like breadcrumbs which can't be blown away by the wind....it's stuck to the ground with super glue. I need someone to make me kutkut.

I want my bestfriend.

Last week in my flat.
I am having this wave of nostalgia..

shocks!
dang!
Madre Mia!
holy smokes!

I feel like pencil shavings wirh zesto juice

tantarantana

It's definite, I am going to MILAN

taking an extensive course in shop and retail design
at
Instituto Europeo di Diseno

kadooper excited
kadooper kinakabahan
abangan......

nude sketches

I remember the kaddoooper mahal nude sketches of Amorsolo.

Dapat super handle with care,
using acid free paper,
framed with the best quality wood,
at lahat ng ka eckeckan na pwedeng maisip.

of course no,Amorsolo kasi......the master man!

So,one day Janah decided that she will sketch nudes too......that day started when she joined the model drawing class every monday.

Someday Janah's nude sketches will have all the ka eckeckan na pwedeng maisip ng bumili ng kadooper mahal na nude drawings niya.

I'm not making any sense...i think i'll go to bed na.

French for 3 days

moi!

night shot,while sitting by the benches

down by the river we stopped

the twinkling tower

oye enrique! que pasa en paris?

sunset

myly my myla....i miss you already

Paris Paris Paris

It's different the 2nd time around but definitely the magic is still there.

The language,the air,the people,the crepes,the cafe creme and not to forget the french men.......fabulous!!!


a place I will not get tired of visiting again and again and again!!!


aurevoir!

BABY.......

you'll be mine.....

They will never know

okay!!

que pasa?

• i'm going to paris next week. Kahit no tengo dinero.
• sun is out!! i'm really sheding layers. Summer is approaching.
• class ends on my birthday,age is just a number.
• i'm moving out of my flat,last month here. I'll miss the chaos.
• My fingers are still crossed,it will happen if it is meant for me.
• I pray that dad's plant goes well.
• My wish is to celebrate our birthday together here in europe.
  
• simple is always better.
• This was a good year for me.
• Met random people.......super kadooper how they influence you,sometimes to trust a stranger gives me the reason to be happy that people are still good by nature.
• i miss my bestfriend,i really wish sometimes that she is here with me physically.
• patience is a lifelong virtue.

ALL ON MY OWN

ESTOY PENSIANDO,TENGO UN POCO TIEMPO ACQUI EN BARCELONA.VOY A MANILA EN 3 MESES.

QUE RAPIDO!

PLAN DE VIDA...QUE ES ESTO? ESTO ES MI RASON PARA VIVIR. NO ES DIFICIL,ES FACIL SI TIENES UN CORAZON AMABLE Y ALMA BUENO.

MUCHOS TIEMPOS,ESTOY MUY ABURRIDO,PIENSO MUCHO.

A VECES,TENGO MIERDO.....PERO.......CREO QUE MUCHAS COSAS SON MEJOR EN ESTE TIEMPO DE MI VIDA.

"home is where my heart is"

Seemed like yesterday when I was counting down my days for my great Barcelona experience. Now,i am already in countdown to my "hello Manila,Janah's back" chapter.

yes...a few more months and my year is up!!! coming back poorer but definitely wiser,more determined and i can say stronger.........The best year in my entire life.

I just hope that everything turns out well when i get home.

I know that things back home will still be the same.......but i changed....

A LOT!!!......

PRIMAVERA

sunny days,cool breeze,warm days!!! tank tops,capris and shorts!!!

Just the right time to get a new haircut...

time to shed some of my layers!!!

feels so lovely!!!!