Since I'm leaving

Dad and mom fixed a despedida dinner for me last night. A fun get together with my family and some close friends. In my whole existence, I felt that with the love and care everyone has for me,I could not ask for more. I have so many people to thank for. I've been really blessed and from the bottom of my heart, many "thank you's" would not be enough to express how I feel.

pala-isipan

Current events determines the outcome of what may happen. But at the niche of time like a blink of an eye,our predictions rarely happens. Here are some examples of what I mean.

Examples of events in my life whose outcomes i never thought would occur,given the present circumstances which I felt so secure about.

• nourishing a long relationship that I thought would somehow lead to "a happy ending partnership" would turn out to be a test of character,pride and a realization that everything indeed happens for a reason no matter how bad it may seem.

• losing a bestfriend through cancer turns out to be tougher than I thought. Instead of wanting to die with her,it made me a better person, so that I could be with her when my time comes. It made me treasure my friends more than I thought I would.

• meeting a new friend or reuniting with old ones could give you that extra energy to appreciate life's little events and making you look forward to more events like these.

• Even how pissed you are with pesky sisters,a nosy brother,nagging mom and srtict dad it turns out that these are the traits that makes you love and appreciate them more.

• goals,careers,how much you earn or how "many" you own does not really matter anymore. What's important to me now is to to live each day as fruitfully as if it were my last and grab the opportunities that comes to prepare me for what i will be in the future.
  

crap crap

I CANNOT PLEASE EVERYONE.......THE END

letting go

and to let go.......

Reality Bites

Eisselle's death anniversary and my own "yah! I'm glad it happened, damn it!" anniversary is fast approaching. Every year seems to speed up double time.

Hopefully it would be a a slow brew for me next year. I just want to savor everything that is about to happen...... Hopefully everything to my good taste....yaaahhhhh hopefully....

Let me tell you how numb I've been this week.

1. I don't really listen to my clients anymore.
2. I say yes to their every demand.
3. I have "floating spree" once in awhile
4. I just do my "chores" quickly not giving any shit about it.
5. I'm so hyper even a sprained ankle cannot stop me from running.
6. This is insane.....but maybe it's just the "going away jitters.....I'M COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS.

Reality Check:

1. Everyone is getting married
2. most are pregnant
3. baby showers are "in" thing
4. My friends literally talk about diapers and breastfeeding
5. Despedida dinners weekly.... including mine
   

Gosh...am I getting old or what..then again,..AGE IS JUST A NUMBER.

dive dive dive

I went diving last Saturday!

Dive Sites in Anilao I went to:

• Sepok1 &2

• Batok

• Arthur's

Even if I was the only girl diver, I had so much fun. That day was one of the best dives in annilao I had. Though the vis was not too clear, the underwater world we explored that day was totally amazing!

I'm gonna miss diving...

yer right there!

Life goes in cycles.

The time that I was born,my parents are just about my age.(starting out their new life as a married couple and building the foundation of a family they would call their own). Few years passed,the family grew;business went up,business went down,new ideas are formed,some battles are won,some are lost,and many are still waiting to be tackled. It goes round and round.The so-called wheel of life.Apparently, this wheel does not end,it has to turn.

Then,I reach a certain age. The age where I am old enough to reason,to think and to act according to my own free will. I am being prepared,the training wheels are active. Throughout this stage,i had an amount of bad decisions which lead to "oh my God" results!,I had some splendid ones,some lucky ones,some bumpy but most of the time just fair and at times boring events here and there.A few years went by so fast that i never realized that I already have my own set of wheels.

I believe that all of us or rather most of us take the same route.But since we are our own drivers,it is up to us to set the speed limits and the breaks.To be a good driver,we should undergo training,we should practice, follow rules and we should never stop learning.

I am now entering the new express way with my old set of wheels re-vulcanized. A new road yet still a long way to go before reaching my destination. This road is for the more expert drivers. Since i'm still a newbie and a stranger here,exciting things happen.

I just have to be reminded when to slow down,when to speed up and when to step on the breaks.